Sunday, September 10, 2006
This is not complete but it’s really close. If anybody has any time please read and give me feed back. She has a one by her name because I don’t know what to name her.
1; Where were you I waited forever for you and you never showed. I spent three hours just sitting and waiting and sitting waiting. You just didn’t show up
Sammy; Hey I thought you were coming. I knew your car was red from the pictures you sent. So every time I saw a red car I’d run to the end of the street and it was never you.
Kelsey; Just one time. I needed you to keep your promise just one time. I needed you to not break one promise.
1; I spent the morning cleaning so everything would be just perfect. After all I haven’t seen you in
Sammy and 1; so long.
Sammy; since I’ve seen you. I wondered if you still smelled the same. You always had this scent about you
Kelsey; Cigarettes you always smelled like cigarettes and alcohol, Your clothes your hair.
Sammy; Your car was so huge. I remember when I was a little boy and I remember getting inside your truck and feeling real small. Then when I sat next to you I felt even smaller. But I liked that feeling. It was like the whole world disappeared when I was in your truck. It was just
Sammy and Kelsey; you and me.
Kelsey; for just a brief moment. Then it wasn’t ever you and me. We’re twins were suppose to act the same, be together. Except you started to lead a fast life and left me in the
Kelsey and 1; dust.
1; everywhere, dirt all over your clothes. When I came up that weekend I did all your laundry. I even ironed your underwear. I cared so much about you.
Sammy; I cared so much about you.
Kelsey; I cared so much about you.
1; I remember how happy me and you once were. You remember that time when it was our anniversary and it was on the same weekend of you and your dad’s father son weekend. I was so angry with you because it was are 3 year anniversary and you weren’t going to be there because; you were spending that time with your dad. So, you cut the weekend short because you wanted to be with me. I remember you used that abandon house we use to always go to and surprised me with rose pedals leading up the stairs and candles lit every where. I still don’t know how you knew I’d go there. Or how long you waited in there for me . I remember right as I got to the top of the stairs you began to play the violin and there was a candlelit dinner and a bracelet lying on the table and engraved were the words I’ll never let you out of my heart. It was such a magical night. You never forgave me for that, because, that was the last time your father was well. Something changed in you when your
1 and Kelsey; dad died.
Kelsey; me and my twin Katie were only six. Our oldest sister Kitty was twelve and she understood the concept of dad leaving and never coming back a little more than we did. My mom was always crazy to me. I remember this one time when she forgot to make dinner. Well it was the first time she forgot anyways. And I remember my oldest sister Kitty was at rehearsal, for a play she was in. My twin sister Katie and I were starving, and we went in and asked mom for something to eat. So she went in the kitchen took out a carton, cracked all the eggs left in the carton into a really tall pot and threw the egg. shells on the floor, and then filled the pot with oil. When the oil didn’t’ reach the top she filled the rest of it with water. She then put it on the stove, and turned it up to the highest temperature she could. She then poured cereal down the drain and gave us a bowl of milk. Then she went into the bathroom lit a bunch of candles turned on the water for the tub and took a nap. Now, I don’t remember what caught on fire first all I remember is sitting on the other side watching fire fighters rescue the house. I remember my sister holding me under one arm and you Katie under the other, kissing are foreheads and telling us she’d never abandon us like moms mom did. While all this was going on my mom sat in the car with her hands on the steering wheel and her keys in the car door. Yes that was
Kelsey and 1; my mom.
1; baked cookies. And she cooks and cleans and waits hand and foot on my dad. Whenever he gave a command she never questioned it, she just did it. My mom was a walking doormat. My mom and dad seemed so happy together though. They loved each other so much. I wanted that happiness. I wanted to be as happy as my dad and
1 and Sammy; my mom.
Sammy; My mom hated my dad. He equally felt the same about her. At the beginning it was good. Well it was never really good. They didn’t seem as happy as all the other parents. They never held hands or kissed in public or kissed at all for that matter. That was normal for my parents. When I was thirteen my parents had their first argument in front of me. The word again and phrases like, why do you always have to bring this up, let me know that this wasn’t their first fight. My parents were really good at hiding this hate they had for one another up to this point. I heard conversations like this more and more often until it was a daily thing. Sometimes it would be over small stuff, like, drinking out of the carton or my mom would shout,
Dorothy; why are your socks always lying around everywhere.
Sammy; I guess they could no longer hide it. Or maybe I just never wanted to see it. Then again who wants to see there family falling
Sammy and Kelsey; a part,
Kelsey; in a Broadway musical ,not just any part the lead role she got it,
Kitty; I’m on my way to becoming a star
Kelsey; she yelled through the house. I wasn’t to thrilled about her announcement because I knew she wasn’t taking us with her. I remember when I was at the airport hugging her goodbye and I remember crying and not wanting to let her go. She looked down on me and said
Kitty; remember that night when mom almost set the house on fire.
Kelsey; “How can I forget I said”.
Kitty; Remember when I took you and Katie in my arms and I said as long I’m living I’ll never abandon you like moms abandoned us. Kelsey I’ll always watch over you, and no matter where life takes any of us, us three will always be together. I need this Kelse it’s time, it’s time I went out and did something with my life.
Kelsey; “But you are doing something” I said I could feel the tears coming, “your being my sister, why can’t that be enough for you”.
Kitty; I’m 21 years old Kelse I feel like I’m 50. I’ve been taking care of you and Katie and mom for the past eight years and I need, to just take care of me for once. I need to find out who I am before it’s too late.
Kelsey; “What are me and Kathy suppose to do while your out finding yourself.”
Kitty; You and Kathy have each other. Besides I’ll be back Kelse I swear, pretend we’re all going off to summer camp and we’ll all see each other again in a couple of weeks. Okay Kelse, I love you.
Kelsey; This was different. I knew it was forever. Kitty wasn’t coming back, Kitty was
Kelsey and 1; leaving
1; “and going away to college no you can’t be” he can’t be. We were never quite the same. I was losing my boyfriend my friend he was my
1 and Kelsey; everything
Kelsey; was going to change after that. I spent a day just lying in my bed looking at pictures back when dad was alive. Looking at how beautiful and happy mom was, he really was the love of her life and something like that can completely shatter someone. I spent three more days looking at pictures of just Kitty, Katie and I. Katie took the news even worse than I did. All three of us were really close. Even though Katie and I were twins. She seemed to be closer to Kitty than to me. Those two did everything together, don’t get me wrong they never left me out or anything, but those two had an even stronger bond. Katie didn’t even show up to the airport because it hurt her so bad. I still remember the look on Kitty face when she asked
Kitty; Where’s Katie?
Kelsey; and I said “she isn’t coming.” Kitty told me
Kitty; tell Katie I’m not angry but disappointed and right now your sister is breaking my heart.
Kelsey; I told Katie later on that night what Kitty said and she replied
Katie; she doesn’t have a right to be angry, me not showing up was fair.
Kelsey; I guess Katie figured Kitty deserved it, because she broke her heart first. After that Katie stopped
Kelsey and Sammy; talking.
Sammy; we were just talking my dad said to my mom.
Dorothy; Talking, I’m surprised you could manage to do that with her tongue that far down your throat.
John; Are we going through this again, BECAUSE I’M NOT CHEATING ON YOU DOROTHY.
Dorothy; You’re a liar.
Sammy; That was first time my dad raised his voice to my mom. I remember There was this one time when we were in this restaurant and my mom thought or maybe she did see my dad checking out the waitress and she said to him
Dorothy; put your tongue back in your mouth before I do it for you.
John; What are you talking about?
Dorothy; Are you going to deny it?
Sammy; Mom said.
John; I don’t know what your talking about Dorothy
Sammy; said my dad said in a hard tone to my mom. Then he followed it with
John; ah your crazy
Sammy; and then he looked at me and said
John; all women aren’t crazy I just happened to get the bad apple in the bunch.
Dorothy; I’m crazy, Oh I’m crazy
Sammy; She repeated even louder half the restaurant was looking at us by this time
Dorothy; Why don’t you tell your son who,
Sammy; as she began to dig deep in her bag
Dorothy; tell him who it is John. Tell him
Sammy; and she dug deeper and deeper emptying out the contents of her purse. I just remember thinking, no, it was more like hoping that she’s lying, that there’s nothing in there, that the fight would just end and my dad would say what’s new in school and my mom would say we’ll talk later, your right, now isn’t the time. But no, she then pulled out a napkin with words written in lipstick and put it on the table. My dad said
John; now is not the time Dorothy.
Sammy; Then mom said in a really slow voice with more hatred in her face then I’ve ever seen her possess.
Dorothy; I want you look your son in the eyes and tell him who your fucking because it damn sure isn’t me.
Sammy; The tears started to well up in my eyes as he turned and looked at me.
John; Sam
Sammy; he said in a low calm voice
John; your mothers crazy, I would never do that to her. I would never do that to you.
After all I do for the family and your going to treat me like this.
Sammy; He turned and looked my mom directly in the eyes.
John; I go out everyday and bust my ass for this family and your going to treat me like this. For the last time I’m not fucking cheated on you Dorothy.
Sammy; With tears dripping down her eyes my mom said
Dorothy; You’ll lie to the very end. Won’t you, you bastard.
Sammy By this time the whole restaurant was staring at us.
Dorothy; You know what John, you forget I do the laundry. Next time, don’t leave this in your pocket
Sammy; and on the table sat ladies underwear. My dad started to cry, I couldn’t believe it, I’ve looked up to this man since I was a little boy, no my entire life, my hero wouldn’t do something like this. I couldn’t look at him.
John; Sam
Sammy; my dad said
John; Sam listen to me
Sammy; my entire image of him was shattered.
John; Sam will you just look at me. Fine
Sammy; he said as he got up and left. I knew from that moment forward things would never be the same. That was the last time him and my mom were in the same room together.
Kelsey; Remember when dad died, we were young, I know it was a long time ago. Mom just couldn’t handle it. Her sense of humor left completely. Her body was there but it just seemed empty. She started drinking heavily so she could cope with the pain. I remember when Kitty left, you began to drink and smoke cigarettes and hang out at the local college. I remember you came in so drunk you couldn’t stand up straight.
Sammy; At one point we were
Sammy and Kelsey; happy
Kelsey; at one point
1; and you did the sweetest thing
Kelsey; And you did the sweetest thing
Sammy; I remember that one time when I was eleven and the fair was in town. This was the first time I was tall enough to ride anything but the kitty rides. You and I were suppose to go. But I had a fever and I was sick the whole weekend so I couldn’t go. The only day left was Monday and that was during school so I couldn’t go. I swear everybody at the entire school even the teachers went , except for me. I remember feeling so sad when I listened to everybody’s stories and how much everyone had. At the moment when I was about to cry they called me down to the office and you pulled me out of school to go to the fair. We rode everything and ate everything insight. You told me stories about when you were a kid and the college you went to and how you couldn’t wait till I went there. That was and still is the best day of my life.
Kelsey; Remember that time when our big sister kitty took us shopping, it was her first paycheck and she said
Kitty; I want to spend this on my little sisters.
Kelsey; We would do everything together. We went to all her rehearsals, plays. She came to everything we did. Whenever it wasn’t us three it was me and you Katie. I use to love the ghost stories you’d tell. Whenever Kitty would go on a date we’d pretend we were there and make up what was going on and what we thought she was saying. My favorite one was when her date took her to mars on his unicorn, to fight the evil aliens, for the good aliens of mars. And when they defeated them they made her their queen and us their princesses. We said that we’d always go on dates together. We use to have so much fun together.
Sammy; Were you ashamed is that why you didn’t come back. Dad I had forgiven you could have come back anytime.
1; We were studying for an Algebra 2 test and there was this one problem that Billy just couldn’t figure out. So I went through the problem and finished it for him. “The answer is seven” I said to him.
Billy; Well aren’t you a little genius, I’ve been working on this problem for twenty minutes, and you solve it in twenty seconds. You make me feel like an idiot you know that.
1; “I’m sorry” I said “I was just trying to help.”
Billy; It’s not enough that you’re a year younger than me and we’re in the same math class, but no, you have to just keep proving how fucking smart you are.
1;I didn’t know what to say, how to react. So I said “your just stressed” I said “it’s to soon maybe you should take a year off first then you should come back to school once you can handle it.” He said
Billy; I’m handling it just fine, why do you think I’m not? Is it because I don’t come running to you crying every damn day, telling you about my feeling. Is it because I don’t express every damn emotion to you. Is that why you think I’m not handling it.
1; I said “relax, I know what your going through.” He looked at me and said
Billy; you don’t have a fucking clue what I’m going through. Your family’s fine. You just want me take a year off so I can graduate with you. You’re selfish you’ve always been selfish. I could have spent my dad’s last good weekend with him but no, instead you had to throw a fucking hissy fit and make me spend it with you.
1; “I’m sorry” I said “I didn’t know, I didn’t know.”
Billy; Save it, save for someone who cares.
1; Then he left. The last time we ever really talked. The relation was over but neither one of us could break it off. I loved him to much and I knew that deep down inside he still loved me, that one day he’d remember the good times we had
Kelsey; She would remember the good times we had.
Sammy; He would remember the good times we had.
1; And one day he come back to me.
Kelsey; One day she’d come back to me.
Sammy; And one day he’d come back.
1;.I remember I once asked my mom why didn’t you ever question anything daddy says or does and she responded
Sheila; “love will do that to you.”
1; So with out any question, I waited. I heard voices in the background I knew I heard voices. My mom said
Sheila; trust, you must always have trust if anything, in a relationship.
1;So I waited.
Sammy; His new wife’s son got into college, it happened to be the college that he went
to. He sent a picture of him and the words on the back said
John; He made me proud.
Sammy; Just a picture
Sammy and 1;no letters.
1; You didn’t send me one. I wrote him a letter everyday for months.
Sammy; Everyday for the a couple of years. Then I made sure I sent him one
Sammy and 1; every week.
1; I’d write a letter saying it’s over, and that I can’t do this if your not going to acknowledge my existence. I’d rip up that letter and send one that said how much I love him and miss him.
1 and Sammy; Nothing more
Sammy; than a bunch of random, pictures, but I wanted to make him proud. If I just got into the College he went to, he’d help me pay for it, everything would go back to normal and we’d be happy once again.
Sammy and1;I knew
1; it was over. It was something that I wasn’t willing to
1 and Sammy; Accepted!
Sammy; I got accepted into that
Sammy and 1; College
1;changes
1 and Sammy; Everything
Sammy; was going to be great again. He was the first person I told. I was so excited to here mom yell
Dorothy; your dad’s on the phone.
John; Congratulations.
Sammy; “Thanks dad” I said. For a second I was on the highest high ever. This was it, he
was going to say it.
John; Not too many people can accomplish what you have. They have a terrific basketball team. How’s basketball going.
Sammy; “Oh not to well.”
John; Do you have an academic scholarship to help you pay for it.
Sammy; “No, I didn’t think about it.”
John; Well I’m sure you’ll figure it out.
Sammy; I guess that meant he wasn’t going to help me pay for it. Why would he help is wife’s son and not me.
John; By the way son. I’m proud of you.
Sammy; “Thanks dad” he hung up the phone. That’s all I wanted to hear. His wife’s son must have been really smart ands got a full ride. I would just have to come up with the money some other way. So
Sammy and Kelsey; I got a part time job
Kelsey; My dad was worth a lot of money when he died and some how, almost all of it managed to leave. I don’t know what my mom wasted it on. But almost all of it was gone
Kelsey and 1; So I had to get a part time job
1; to keep my mind off of him. How pathetic was it for me to think of him all the
1 and Kelsey; time.
Kelsey; seemed to be speeding right past me. There was work and grades and getting into college. I felt like everything was crashing down on me and I just couldn’t handle it anymore. I couldn’t handle it anymore and mom just seemed to be getting worse and my sister, I needed my twin sister, I needed her more than ever. We hadn’t really talked since Kitty left three years ago.
Sammy; It was my first day at work, I was a little happy, excited, nervous. The manager helped me expand on the nervous part.
Manager; Even though we’re not to far from that college down the street this is not the safest place to work. It’s a gas station. We’ve been robbed three times this month. Well it’s not really that big of a deal. It’s normally a college student who wears a mask and puts a knife or water gun in their pocket. If it is a real gun they never know how to use or plan on doing so. All you have to do is show them one of these babies.
Sammy; He reaches in the drawer and takes out a gun.
Manager; or, should I say we’ve had three attempted robberies this month. This always gives them a scare, just wave it in their face and they’ll run out of hear with their tale between their legs.
Sammy;” Is it fully loaded”
Manager; Yeah
Sammy; “So all I have to do is wave this around and I’ll have no problems. And this works every time.”
Manager; Every time but once, but mid terms can really freak someone out.
Sammy; The next week was my first day all by myself. There were quite a lot of customers for so late at night. All of them on beer runs or coming to get condoms. Almost all of them had fake I.Ds. Except for this one guy. He came in and bought flowers. “What’s with the bouquets”.
Stranger; It’s my fathers birthday in about three minutes.
Sammy; “You and your father always celebrate this late?”
Stranger; My father’s dead.
Sammy; “Sorry.’
Stranger; That’s okay. Every time it’s his birthday or if it’s Christmas or if it’s my birthday or any special occasion. I go and visit him at his grave.
Sammy; “My father’s gone to.”
Stranger; Yeah.
Sammy; This guy looked so familiar. I feel like I’ve met him before. Or I’ve seen him. “He’s not dead like your father he’s just gone. He left me mom and my mom when I was thirteen.”
Stranger; That sucks. I think it would hurt more to know my dad was still alive and just abandoned me.
Sammy; “He didn’t really abandon me. He abandoned my mom, he still loves me.”
Stranger; I’m sure he does. Do you still talk to him?
Sammy; “Yeah, just the other day. He called me to tell me how proud he was. I got into
the same college he did.”
Stranger; Which one is that.
Sammy; “That one right across the street.”
Stranger; That’s good, You seem like you’ll be a good edition to the school.
Sammy; “Thanks, I’m looking forward to it.”
Stranger; The parties are amazing, and the education is good too. You’ll have fun.
Sammy; ‘Is this from personal experience.”
Stranger; No I’m not much of party animal anymore.
Sammy; “Oh”.
Stranger; Oh, I just have been up to it lately.
Sammy; “So you bring him all these flowers every time you visit.”
Strangers; No these are for my girlfriend. Well I don’t know if she’s still my girlfriend. I think we kind of broke up. But not really, I cheated on her, a lot, I don’t know why. My girlfriend’s not just my girlfriend she’s my best friend. Well, was my best friend. She’s my everything. And I kind of just fucked it up. I hope she takes me back. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’m going to fix it. It’s me and her five year anniversary in couple of days.
Sammy; Your father’s birthday and your are really close.
Strangers; Two years five days from now is the exact day he died. And three months from that time is the exact day, My mom started dating that asshole. She didn’t even wait till his body was cold. She said that the timing wasn’t right but the person was. What a dick, he knew my mom was vulnerable and he just pounced on her like a fucking piece of meat. Just be grateful that, that cocksucker isn’t your fucking father.
Sammy; I know what I know him from.
Stranger; You know he abandoned his family and expects to join ours.
Sammy; Dad sent pictures.
Stranger; What does he expect from me to call him my father. I had a father.
Sammy; I can’t believe it.
Stranger; He has a son. He’s a dead beat dad.
Sammy; It was the son of his new wife.
Stranger; Fucking, John. That’s all he’ll hear from me. John.
Sammy; “ Where’d you say his son was going to college”.
Stranger; I didn’t, but he’s going to the same place we are. Isn’t that a coincidence. A
little spooky huh.
Sammy; “Yeah a little. Did you know his name.”
Stranger; The son?
Sammy; “Yeah.”
Stranger; No his name never came up. It was nice to meet you. I hope to see you around. What was your name again.
Sammy; “Sammy, and yours?”
Stranger; Billy, Nice to meet Sammy.
Sammy; See you later
Sammy and 1;Billy.
1; Called me yesterday.
Billy; I miss you Kelsey.
1; “I miss you to.”
Billy; Are anniversary is coming up.
1; “I know.”
Billy; I know that lately I’ve been neglectful.
1; “Yeah you have.”
Billy; I’m sorry. And I still love you.
1; “That’s not going to cut it”.
Billy; I know, and I want to prove it to you right now.
1; ‘How?”
Billy; You remember this song.
1; From the phone I heard a faint sound. Then it got louder and louder and louder. Until it sounded so loud I felt like It was coming from outside. It was coming outside. I opened the window and I saw Billy on the lawn dancing to and singing color me badd’s all for love with a dozen rose in his hands. After the song ended he shouted
Billy; Saturday. This Saturday is our anniversary.
1; He tossed up a key. On the key was written 202.
Billy; Meet Saturday morning in my dorm room. I’ve got the whole day planned out. I’ll make everything up to you I swear, See you Saturday.
1; “Bye Billy”. See you
1and Sammy; Saturday
Sammy; Was the day of my graduation. I wrote my dad four weeks ahead of time about the graduation, and sent him a ticket. I wrote my dad one week later and sent him a ticket just in case he lost the first one. I did that every week except the last one. The last week I sent him a letter everyday telling him how important it is and a ticket as well. It was the big day
Sammy and Kelsey; Saturday
Kelsey; After graduation was the day I was going to spend with my sister. Just me and her. Like the old days. Just the girls. I’d show her that we can have a great time with out alcohol and guys. Just like we use to, just you and me. I planned for it all week until it was the big day.
Sammy; It was graduation day
1; It was are anniversary. Where were you I waited forever for you and you never showed. I spent three hours just sitting and waiting and sitting waiting. You just didn’t show up
Sammy; Hey I thought you were coming. I knew your car was red from the pictures you sent. So every time I saw a red car I’d run to the end of the street and wait. Kelsey; Just one time. I needed you to keep your promise just one time. I needed you to not break one promise. 1; I spent the morning cleaning so everything would be just perfect. After all I haven’t seen you in so long.Sammy; so long since I’ve seen you. I wondered if you still smelled the same. You always had this scent about youKelsey; Cigarettes you always smelled like cigarettes and alcohol , Your clothes your hair. Not today you’re not going to do this to me
Kelsey and Sammy; today.
Sammy; We’re going to celebrate my graduation
1; Our anniversary.
Kelsey; We’re just going to have
Sammy, Kelsey, and 1; A good time.
Sheila; Why aren’t you coming to dinner?
1; My mom called me and asked. “Because I was waiting for Billy” I said.
Dorothy; Why aren’t you coming home don’t you want to enjoy what’s left of your
graduation day?
Sammy; “I am waiting for dad” I said “he’ll be here in just a sec”.
Kelsey; In a sec she’ll be back. She just went to get some ice cream or something. I’ll just stay up until she comes home.
Sammy; I’ll just wait until dad comes, he’ll be here soon,
Sammy and 1; he promised
1;He knows how much this means to me. So I waited
Sammy; I waited.
Kelsey; I waited.
1; Until all the candles burned out.
Kelsey; Until I couldn’t see straight.
Sammy; Until my shift started
1; And then I went to sleep.
Kelsey; And then I went to sleep.Sammy; And then I went to work. Of all the people, of all the nights, he had to come in tonight. His new son with his girlfriend. I couldn’t see her face at first.
Billy; Hey Sam, how’s your night going he said.
Sammy; He was drunk “It’s going” I answered “How your night.” I see your back with your girlfriend.
Billy; No that’s Katie, that’s the girl I’ve been screwing around with on and off, and up and down. My night kind of sucks. No yesterday sucked. John wanted to do some big father son crap to celebrate my completing freshmen year at Rollins. As if I went there for him. It was the only place he agreed to pay for completely.
Sammy; He paid for it completely. “Hey doesn’t your dad” your dad, your dad, were those words actually coming from my mouth. I continued my sentence. “Doesn’t he have a son that goes to drayfus.”
Billy; Yeah.
Sammy; “They graduated today. Do you have any idea of why he didn’t go. I mean if he went.”
Billy; No he didn’t go. He’s a worthless piece of shit. If you ask me, John’s an asshole. Friday he told me that him and my mom have been together for the past seven years. When my father was alive. That asshole is probably the reason why he’s dead today. He fucking shadows me wherever I go. I guess I’m the son he never had.
Sammy; “No, he had a son, he has a son. I ‘m right fucking here” I said.
Billy; “What? You’re is son, all this time, it’s been you.”
Sammy; “Yes, he is an amazing man” I said. “Your father was, and never will be half the man my father is.” Then I thought to myself. This is who has my father. This ungrateful little shit. He is the reason why I have to delay college an extra year. He is the reason why dad never came to any of my games. He’s the reason why dad doesn’t love me any more. Then it occurred to me that I could end it all right now. Billy is the cause of all of my problems. He has all of dad’s attention. That I could fix it all. I could fix it all, before I had a chance to say anything this man dressed in black with a hood came rushing through the door
Sammy and Kelsey; I rememberKelsey; when the cops came to the door I was startled
Kelsey and 1; at first. 1; when his sister came to the door I thought she was there to tell me why he didn’t show. When I looked at her face I could tell it was something more.
Sammy and 1;I knew Sammy; he was here to rob the place. It was just a matter of
Sammy and Kelsey; whenKelsey; the officers told me you’d been shot in a gas station I didn’t believe it. It couldn’t be true. We’re twins I would of known. You still felt
Kelsey and 1; alive.
1; JUST TELL me IF HE’S STILL ALIVE. I NEED TO know if he’s still
1 and Kelsey; breathing.
Kelsey; I felt like I’d STOP
Kelsey and Sammy; BREATHINGSammy; very heavily, he pointed a gun at me and said give me the cash and no one will get
Sammy and1; hurt
1; is he, is he hurt, give me something ,Justine don’t just stand
Sammy and 1;there.
Sammy; was my opportunity
Kelsey; I’m sorry that your dead.
Sammy; I’m sorry that I shot her.
Kelsey; I knew him from school.
Sammy; I knew her sister Kelsey from school.
Kelsey; I always that he was a nice kid. He
Kelsey and 1; Is not the type.
1; of story you want to hear in the morning. That your boyfriend was robbed
1 and Sammy; and could have made it out alive
Sammy; but I couldn’t let that happen. This was my chance to get my father back. I took out the gun and aimed it right for him. He backed up. Katie stood right in front of him and said
Katie; Listen Sammy you don’t want to do this. It’s all over. The robber surrendered. We’ll call the cops and he will go to jail. And you will be a hero. Just put the gun down. Sammy; “Move Katie. I’ve got to do this”
Katie; No.
Sammy; “Only because I know your sister, am I going count up to three and give you the chance to move. 1”
Katie; no Sammy don’t do this
Sammy; “2.”
Katie; No Sammy please. Kelsey; In one shot she was gone. Why couldn’t you just leave him alone. Why couldn’t you have come home like you said and watched movies with me and just hang out like you promised. I needed you, Why did you have to
Kelsey and 1;leave me.
1; alone, your lying he’s still alive. He couldn’t be
Sammy and 1; dead.
Sammy; She was dead I didn’t do that. I did do that, the gun was in my hands. I’ve got to finish it, I’ve got to shoot him. So I did.
1; If you wouldn’t have cheated.
Kelsey; If you would have listened.
Sammy; If you have loved me.
1; You wouldn’t have been in a coma.
Kelsey; You wouldn’t have died
Sammy; I wouldn’t have shot them.
Kelsey; I go to your grave everyday.
1; I visit you in the hospital everyday.
Sammy; I sit in this cell everyday. For what?
Kelsey; It wasn’t worth it.
Sammy; It wasn’t worth it.
1; The doctors tell me that the chances of you making it is a million to one. But I know One day you’ll recover.
Kelsey; You’ll never recover.
Sammy; I’ll never recover.
1; No you won’t and I know you won’t and
Kelsey; I’m still waiting.
Sammy; I’m still waiting.
1; I’m sorry I loved you.
Sammy; I’m sorry I loved you.
Kelsey; I’m sorry I loved you.
1; But
Kelsey; I wish you were here
Sammy; I wish you were here
1; I wish you were here.
1; Where were you I waited forever for you and you never showed. I spent three hours just sitting and waiting and sitting waiting. You just didn’t show up
Sammy; Hey I thought you were coming. I knew your car was red from the pictures you sent. So every time I saw a red car I’d run to the end of the street and it was never you.
Kelsey; Just one time. I needed you to keep your promise just one time. I needed you to not break one promise.
1; I spent the morning cleaning so everything would be just perfect. After all I haven’t seen you in
Sammy and 1; so long.
Sammy; since I’ve seen you. I wondered if you still smelled the same. You always had this scent about you
Kelsey; Cigarettes you always smelled like cigarettes and alcohol, Your clothes your hair.
Sammy; Your car was so huge. I remember when I was a little boy and I remember getting inside your truck and feeling real small. Then when I sat next to you I felt even smaller. But I liked that feeling. It was like the whole world disappeared when I was in your truck. It was just
Sammy and Kelsey; you and me.
Kelsey; for just a brief moment. Then it wasn’t ever you and me. We’re twins were suppose to act the same, be together. Except you started to lead a fast life and left me in the
Kelsey and 1; dust.
1; everywhere, dirt all over your clothes. When I came up that weekend I did all your laundry. I even ironed your underwear. I cared so much about you.
Sammy; I cared so much about you.
Kelsey; I cared so much about you.
1; I remember how happy me and you once were. You remember that time when it was our anniversary and it was on the same weekend of you and your dad’s father son weekend. I was so angry with you because it was are 3 year anniversary and you weren’t going to be there because; you were spending that time with your dad. So, you cut the weekend short because you wanted to be with me. I remember you used that abandon house we use to always go to and surprised me with rose pedals leading up the stairs and candles lit every where. I still don’t know how you knew I’d go there. Or how long you waited in there for me . I remember right as I got to the top of the stairs you began to play the violin and there was a candlelit dinner and a bracelet lying on the table and engraved were the words I’ll never let you out of my heart. It was such a magical night. You never forgave me for that, because, that was the last time your father was well. Something changed in you when your
1 and Kelsey; dad died.
Kelsey; me and my twin Katie were only six. Our oldest sister Kitty was twelve and she understood the concept of dad leaving and never coming back a little more than we did. My mom was always crazy to me. I remember this one time when she forgot to make dinner. Well it was the first time she forgot anyways. And I remember my oldest sister Kitty was at rehearsal, for a play she was in. My twin sister Katie and I were starving, and we went in and asked mom for something to eat. So she went in the kitchen took out a carton, cracked all the eggs left in the carton into a really tall pot and threw the egg. shells on the floor, and then filled the pot with oil. When the oil didn’t’ reach the top she filled the rest of it with water. She then put it on the stove, and turned it up to the highest temperature she could. She then poured cereal down the drain and gave us a bowl of milk. Then she went into the bathroom lit a bunch of candles turned on the water for the tub and took a nap. Now, I don’t remember what caught on fire first all I remember is sitting on the other side watching fire fighters rescue the house. I remember my sister holding me under one arm and you Katie under the other, kissing are foreheads and telling us she’d never abandon us like moms mom did. While all this was going on my mom sat in the car with her hands on the steering wheel and her keys in the car door. Yes that was
Kelsey and 1; my mom.
1; baked cookies. And she cooks and cleans and waits hand and foot on my dad. Whenever he gave a command she never questioned it, she just did it. My mom was a walking doormat. My mom and dad seemed so happy together though. They loved each other so much. I wanted that happiness. I wanted to be as happy as my dad and
1 and Sammy; my mom.
Sammy; My mom hated my dad. He equally felt the same about her. At the beginning it was good. Well it was never really good. They didn’t seem as happy as all the other parents. They never held hands or kissed in public or kissed at all for that matter. That was normal for my parents. When I was thirteen my parents had their first argument in front of me. The word again and phrases like, why do you always have to bring this up, let me know that this wasn’t their first fight. My parents were really good at hiding this hate they had for one another up to this point. I heard conversations like this more and more often until it was a daily thing. Sometimes it would be over small stuff, like, drinking out of the carton or my mom would shout,
Dorothy; why are your socks always lying around everywhere.
Sammy; I guess they could no longer hide it. Or maybe I just never wanted to see it. Then again who wants to see there family falling
Sammy and Kelsey; a part,
Kelsey; in a Broadway musical ,not just any part the lead role she got it,
Kitty; I’m on my way to becoming a star
Kelsey; she yelled through the house. I wasn’t to thrilled about her announcement because I knew she wasn’t taking us with her. I remember when I was at the airport hugging her goodbye and I remember crying and not wanting to let her go. She looked down on me and said
Kitty; remember that night when mom almost set the house on fire.
Kelsey; “How can I forget I said”.
Kitty; Remember when I took you and Katie in my arms and I said as long I’m living I’ll never abandon you like moms abandoned us. Kelsey I’ll always watch over you, and no matter where life takes any of us, us three will always be together. I need this Kelse it’s time, it’s time I went out and did something with my life.
Kelsey; “But you are doing something” I said I could feel the tears coming, “your being my sister, why can’t that be enough for you”.
Kitty; I’m 21 years old Kelse I feel like I’m 50. I’ve been taking care of you and Katie and mom for the past eight years and I need, to just take care of me for once. I need to find out who I am before it’s too late.
Kelsey; “What are me and Kathy suppose to do while your out finding yourself.”
Kitty; You and Kathy have each other. Besides I’ll be back Kelse I swear, pretend we’re all going off to summer camp and we’ll all see each other again in a couple of weeks. Okay Kelse, I love you.
Kelsey; This was different. I knew it was forever. Kitty wasn’t coming back, Kitty was
Kelsey and 1; leaving
1; “and going away to college no you can’t be” he can’t be. We were never quite the same. I was losing my boyfriend my friend he was my
1 and Kelsey; everything
Kelsey; was going to change after that. I spent a day just lying in my bed looking at pictures back when dad was alive. Looking at how beautiful and happy mom was, he really was the love of her life and something like that can completely shatter someone. I spent three more days looking at pictures of just Kitty, Katie and I. Katie took the news even worse than I did. All three of us were really close. Even though Katie and I were twins. She seemed to be closer to Kitty than to me. Those two did everything together, don’t get me wrong they never left me out or anything, but those two had an even stronger bond. Katie didn’t even show up to the airport because it hurt her so bad. I still remember the look on Kitty face when she asked
Kitty; Where’s Katie?
Kelsey; and I said “she isn’t coming.” Kitty told me
Kitty; tell Katie I’m not angry but disappointed and right now your sister is breaking my heart.
Kelsey; I told Katie later on that night what Kitty said and she replied
Katie; she doesn’t have a right to be angry, me not showing up was fair.
Kelsey; I guess Katie figured Kitty deserved it, because she broke her heart first. After that Katie stopped
Kelsey and Sammy; talking.
Sammy; we were just talking my dad said to my mom.
Dorothy; Talking, I’m surprised you could manage to do that with her tongue that far down your throat.
John; Are we going through this again, BECAUSE I’M NOT CHEATING ON YOU DOROTHY.
Dorothy; You’re a liar.
Sammy; That was first time my dad raised his voice to my mom. I remember There was this one time when we were in this restaurant and my mom thought or maybe she did see my dad checking out the waitress and she said to him
Dorothy; put your tongue back in your mouth before I do it for you.
John; What are you talking about?
Dorothy; Are you going to deny it?
Sammy; Mom said.
John; I don’t know what your talking about Dorothy
Sammy; said my dad said in a hard tone to my mom. Then he followed it with
John; ah your crazy
Sammy; and then he looked at me and said
John; all women aren’t crazy I just happened to get the bad apple in the bunch.
Dorothy; I’m crazy, Oh I’m crazy
Sammy; She repeated even louder half the restaurant was looking at us by this time
Dorothy; Why don’t you tell your son who,
Sammy; as she began to dig deep in her bag
Dorothy; tell him who it is John. Tell him
Sammy; and she dug deeper and deeper emptying out the contents of her purse. I just remember thinking, no, it was more like hoping that she’s lying, that there’s nothing in there, that the fight would just end and my dad would say what’s new in school and my mom would say we’ll talk later, your right, now isn’t the time. But no, she then pulled out a napkin with words written in lipstick and put it on the table. My dad said
John; now is not the time Dorothy.
Sammy; Then mom said in a really slow voice with more hatred in her face then I’ve ever seen her possess.
Dorothy; I want you look your son in the eyes and tell him who your fucking because it damn sure isn’t me.
Sammy; The tears started to well up in my eyes as he turned and looked at me.
John; Sam
Sammy; he said in a low calm voice
John; your mothers crazy, I would never do that to her. I would never do that to you.
After all I do for the family and your going to treat me like this.
Sammy; He turned and looked my mom directly in the eyes.
John; I go out everyday and bust my ass for this family and your going to treat me like this. For the last time I’m not fucking cheated on you Dorothy.
Sammy; With tears dripping down her eyes my mom said
Dorothy; You’ll lie to the very end. Won’t you, you bastard.
Sammy By this time the whole restaurant was staring at us.
Dorothy; You know what John, you forget I do the laundry. Next time, don’t leave this in your pocket
Sammy; and on the table sat ladies underwear. My dad started to cry, I couldn’t believe it, I’ve looked up to this man since I was a little boy, no my entire life, my hero wouldn’t do something like this. I couldn’t look at him.
John; Sam
Sammy; my dad said
John; Sam listen to me
Sammy; my entire image of him was shattered.
John; Sam will you just look at me. Fine
Sammy; he said as he got up and left. I knew from that moment forward things would never be the same. That was the last time him and my mom were in the same room together.
Kelsey; Remember when dad died, we were young, I know it was a long time ago. Mom just couldn’t handle it. Her sense of humor left completely. Her body was there but it just seemed empty. She started drinking heavily so she could cope with the pain. I remember when Kitty left, you began to drink and smoke cigarettes and hang out at the local college. I remember you came in so drunk you couldn’t stand up straight.
Sammy; At one point we were
Sammy and Kelsey; happy
Kelsey; at one point
1; and you did the sweetest thing
Kelsey; And you did the sweetest thing
Sammy; I remember that one time when I was eleven and the fair was in town. This was the first time I was tall enough to ride anything but the kitty rides. You and I were suppose to go. But I had a fever and I was sick the whole weekend so I couldn’t go. The only day left was Monday and that was during school so I couldn’t go. I swear everybody at the entire school even the teachers went , except for me. I remember feeling so sad when I listened to everybody’s stories and how much everyone had. At the moment when I was about to cry they called me down to the office and you pulled me out of school to go to the fair. We rode everything and ate everything insight. You told me stories about when you were a kid and the college you went to and how you couldn’t wait till I went there. That was and still is the best day of my life.
Kelsey; Remember that time when our big sister kitty took us shopping, it was her first paycheck and she said
Kitty; I want to spend this on my little sisters.
Kelsey; We would do everything together. We went to all her rehearsals, plays. She came to everything we did. Whenever it wasn’t us three it was me and you Katie. I use to love the ghost stories you’d tell. Whenever Kitty would go on a date we’d pretend we were there and make up what was going on and what we thought she was saying. My favorite one was when her date took her to mars on his unicorn, to fight the evil aliens, for the good aliens of mars. And when they defeated them they made her their queen and us their princesses. We said that we’d always go on dates together. We use to have so much fun together.
Sammy; Were you ashamed is that why you didn’t come back. Dad I had forgiven you could have come back anytime.
1; We were studying for an Algebra 2 test and there was this one problem that Billy just couldn’t figure out. So I went through the problem and finished it for him. “The answer is seven” I said to him.
Billy; Well aren’t you a little genius, I’ve been working on this problem for twenty minutes, and you solve it in twenty seconds. You make me feel like an idiot you know that.
1; “I’m sorry” I said “I was just trying to help.”
Billy; It’s not enough that you’re a year younger than me and we’re in the same math class, but no, you have to just keep proving how fucking smart you are.
1;I didn’t know what to say, how to react. So I said “your just stressed” I said “it’s to soon maybe you should take a year off first then you should come back to school once you can handle it.” He said
Billy; I’m handling it just fine, why do you think I’m not? Is it because I don’t come running to you crying every damn day, telling you about my feeling. Is it because I don’t express every damn emotion to you. Is that why you think I’m not handling it.
1; I said “relax, I know what your going through.” He looked at me and said
Billy; you don’t have a fucking clue what I’m going through. Your family’s fine. You just want me take a year off so I can graduate with you. You’re selfish you’ve always been selfish. I could have spent my dad’s last good weekend with him but no, instead you had to throw a fucking hissy fit and make me spend it with you.
1; “I’m sorry” I said “I didn’t know, I didn’t know.”
Billy; Save it, save for someone who cares.
1; Then he left. The last time we ever really talked. The relation was over but neither one of us could break it off. I loved him to much and I knew that deep down inside he still loved me, that one day he’d remember the good times we had
Kelsey; She would remember the good times we had.
Sammy; He would remember the good times we had.
1; And one day he come back to me.
Kelsey; One day she’d come back to me.
Sammy; And one day he’d come back.
1;.I remember I once asked my mom why didn’t you ever question anything daddy says or does and she responded
Sheila; “love will do that to you.”
1; So with out any question, I waited. I heard voices in the background I knew I heard voices. My mom said
Sheila; trust, you must always have trust if anything, in a relationship.
1;So I waited.
Sammy; His new wife’s son got into college, it happened to be the college that he went
to. He sent a picture of him and the words on the back said
John; He made me proud.
Sammy; Just a picture
Sammy and 1;no letters.
1; You didn’t send me one. I wrote him a letter everyday for months.
Sammy; Everyday for the a couple of years. Then I made sure I sent him one
Sammy and 1; every week.
1; I’d write a letter saying it’s over, and that I can’t do this if your not going to acknowledge my existence. I’d rip up that letter and send one that said how much I love him and miss him.
1 and Sammy; Nothing more
Sammy; than a bunch of random, pictures, but I wanted to make him proud. If I just got into the College he went to, he’d help me pay for it, everything would go back to normal and we’d be happy once again.
Sammy and1;I knew
1; it was over. It was something that I wasn’t willing to
1 and Sammy; Accepted!
Sammy; I got accepted into that
Sammy and 1; College
1;changes
1 and Sammy; Everything
Sammy; was going to be great again. He was the first person I told. I was so excited to here mom yell
Dorothy; your dad’s on the phone.
John; Congratulations.
Sammy; “Thanks dad” I said. For a second I was on the highest high ever. This was it, he
was going to say it.
John; Not too many people can accomplish what you have. They have a terrific basketball team. How’s basketball going.
Sammy; “Oh not to well.”
John; Do you have an academic scholarship to help you pay for it.
Sammy; “No, I didn’t think about it.”
John; Well I’m sure you’ll figure it out.
Sammy; I guess that meant he wasn’t going to help me pay for it. Why would he help is wife’s son and not me.
John; By the way son. I’m proud of you.
Sammy; “Thanks dad” he hung up the phone. That’s all I wanted to hear. His wife’s son must have been really smart ands got a full ride. I would just have to come up with the money some other way. So
Sammy and Kelsey; I got a part time job
Kelsey; My dad was worth a lot of money when he died and some how, almost all of it managed to leave. I don’t know what my mom wasted it on. But almost all of it was gone
Kelsey and 1; So I had to get a part time job
1; to keep my mind off of him. How pathetic was it for me to think of him all the
1 and Kelsey; time.
Kelsey; seemed to be speeding right past me. There was work and grades and getting into college. I felt like everything was crashing down on me and I just couldn’t handle it anymore. I couldn’t handle it anymore and mom just seemed to be getting worse and my sister, I needed my twin sister, I needed her more than ever. We hadn’t really talked since Kitty left three years ago.
Sammy; It was my first day at work, I was a little happy, excited, nervous. The manager helped me expand on the nervous part.
Manager; Even though we’re not to far from that college down the street this is not the safest place to work. It’s a gas station. We’ve been robbed three times this month. Well it’s not really that big of a deal. It’s normally a college student who wears a mask and puts a knife or water gun in their pocket. If it is a real gun they never know how to use or plan on doing so. All you have to do is show them one of these babies.
Sammy; He reaches in the drawer and takes out a gun.
Manager; or, should I say we’ve had three attempted robberies this month. This always gives them a scare, just wave it in their face and they’ll run out of hear with their tale between their legs.
Sammy;” Is it fully loaded”
Manager; Yeah
Sammy; “So all I have to do is wave this around and I’ll have no problems. And this works every time.”
Manager; Every time but once, but mid terms can really freak someone out.
Sammy; The next week was my first day all by myself. There were quite a lot of customers for so late at night. All of them on beer runs or coming to get condoms. Almost all of them had fake I.Ds. Except for this one guy. He came in and bought flowers. “What’s with the bouquets”.
Stranger; It’s my fathers birthday in about three minutes.
Sammy; “You and your father always celebrate this late?”
Stranger; My father’s dead.
Sammy; “Sorry.’
Stranger; That’s okay. Every time it’s his birthday or if it’s Christmas or if it’s my birthday or any special occasion. I go and visit him at his grave.
Sammy; “My father’s gone to.”
Stranger; Yeah.
Sammy; This guy looked so familiar. I feel like I’ve met him before. Or I’ve seen him. “He’s not dead like your father he’s just gone. He left me mom and my mom when I was thirteen.”
Stranger; That sucks. I think it would hurt more to know my dad was still alive and just abandoned me.
Sammy; “He didn’t really abandon me. He abandoned my mom, he still loves me.”
Stranger; I’m sure he does. Do you still talk to him?
Sammy; “Yeah, just the other day. He called me to tell me how proud he was. I got into
the same college he did.”
Stranger; Which one is that.
Sammy; “That one right across the street.”
Stranger; That’s good, You seem like you’ll be a good edition to the school.
Sammy; “Thanks, I’m looking forward to it.”
Stranger; The parties are amazing, and the education is good too. You’ll have fun.
Sammy; ‘Is this from personal experience.”
Stranger; No I’m not much of party animal anymore.
Sammy; “Oh”.
Stranger; Oh, I just have been up to it lately.
Sammy; “So you bring him all these flowers every time you visit.”
Strangers; No these are for my girlfriend. Well I don’t know if she’s still my girlfriend. I think we kind of broke up. But not really, I cheated on her, a lot, I don’t know why. My girlfriend’s not just my girlfriend she’s my best friend. Well, was my best friend. She’s my everything. And I kind of just fucked it up. I hope she takes me back. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’m going to fix it. It’s me and her five year anniversary in couple of days.
Sammy; Your father’s birthday and your are really close.
Strangers; Two years five days from now is the exact day he died. And three months from that time is the exact day, My mom started dating that asshole. She didn’t even wait till his body was cold. She said that the timing wasn’t right but the person was. What a dick, he knew my mom was vulnerable and he just pounced on her like a fucking piece of meat. Just be grateful that, that cocksucker isn’t your fucking father.
Sammy; I know what I know him from.
Stranger; You know he abandoned his family and expects to join ours.
Sammy; Dad sent pictures.
Stranger; What does he expect from me to call him my father. I had a father.
Sammy; I can’t believe it.
Stranger; He has a son. He’s a dead beat dad.
Sammy; It was the son of his new wife.
Stranger; Fucking, John. That’s all he’ll hear from me. John.
Sammy; “ Where’d you say his son was going to college”.
Stranger; I didn’t, but he’s going to the same place we are. Isn’t that a coincidence. A
little spooky huh.
Sammy; “Yeah a little. Did you know his name.”
Stranger; The son?
Sammy; “Yeah.”
Stranger; No his name never came up. It was nice to meet you. I hope to see you around. What was your name again.
Sammy; “Sammy, and yours?”
Stranger; Billy, Nice to meet Sammy.
Sammy; See you later
Sammy and 1;Billy.
1; Called me yesterday.
Billy; I miss you Kelsey.
1; “I miss you to.”
Billy; Are anniversary is coming up.
1; “I know.”
Billy; I know that lately I’ve been neglectful.
1; “Yeah you have.”
Billy; I’m sorry. And I still love you.
1; “That’s not going to cut it”.
Billy; I know, and I want to prove it to you right now.
1; ‘How?”
Billy; You remember this song.
1; From the phone I heard a faint sound. Then it got louder and louder and louder. Until it sounded so loud I felt like It was coming from outside. It was coming outside. I opened the window and I saw Billy on the lawn dancing to and singing color me badd’s all for love with a dozen rose in his hands. After the song ended he shouted
Billy; Saturday. This Saturday is our anniversary.
1; He tossed up a key. On the key was written 202.
Billy; Meet Saturday morning in my dorm room. I’ve got the whole day planned out. I’ll make everything up to you I swear, See you Saturday.
1; “Bye Billy”. See you
1and Sammy; Saturday
Sammy; Was the day of my graduation. I wrote my dad four weeks ahead of time about the graduation, and sent him a ticket. I wrote my dad one week later and sent him a ticket just in case he lost the first one. I did that every week except the last one. The last week I sent him a letter everyday telling him how important it is and a ticket as well. It was the big day
Sammy and Kelsey; Saturday
Kelsey; After graduation was the day I was going to spend with my sister. Just me and her. Like the old days. Just the girls. I’d show her that we can have a great time with out alcohol and guys. Just like we use to, just you and me. I planned for it all week until it was the big day.
Sammy; It was graduation day
1; It was are anniversary. Where were you I waited forever for you and you never showed. I spent three hours just sitting and waiting and sitting waiting. You just didn’t show up
Sammy; Hey I thought you were coming. I knew your car was red from the pictures you sent. So every time I saw a red car I’d run to the end of the street and wait. Kelsey; Just one time. I needed you to keep your promise just one time. I needed you to not break one promise. 1; I spent the morning cleaning so everything would be just perfect. After all I haven’t seen you in so long.Sammy; so long since I’ve seen you. I wondered if you still smelled the same. You always had this scent about youKelsey; Cigarettes you always smelled like cigarettes and alcohol , Your clothes your hair. Not today you’re not going to do this to me
Kelsey and Sammy; today.
Sammy; We’re going to celebrate my graduation
1; Our anniversary.
Kelsey; We’re just going to have
Sammy, Kelsey, and 1; A good time.
Sheila; Why aren’t you coming to dinner?
1; My mom called me and asked. “Because I was waiting for Billy” I said.
Dorothy; Why aren’t you coming home don’t you want to enjoy what’s left of your
graduation day?
Sammy; “I am waiting for dad” I said “he’ll be here in just a sec”.
Kelsey; In a sec she’ll be back. She just went to get some ice cream or something. I’ll just stay up until she comes home.
Sammy; I’ll just wait until dad comes, he’ll be here soon,
Sammy and 1; he promised
1;He knows how much this means to me. So I waited
Sammy; I waited.
Kelsey; I waited.
1; Until all the candles burned out.
Kelsey; Until I couldn’t see straight.
Sammy; Until my shift started
1; And then I went to sleep.
Kelsey; And then I went to sleep.Sammy; And then I went to work. Of all the people, of all the nights, he had to come in tonight. His new son with his girlfriend. I couldn’t see her face at first.
Billy; Hey Sam, how’s your night going he said.
Sammy; He was drunk “It’s going” I answered “How your night.” I see your back with your girlfriend.
Billy; No that’s Katie, that’s the girl I’ve been screwing around with on and off, and up and down. My night kind of sucks. No yesterday sucked. John wanted to do some big father son crap to celebrate my completing freshmen year at Rollins. As if I went there for him. It was the only place he agreed to pay for completely.
Sammy; He paid for it completely. “Hey doesn’t your dad” your dad, your dad, were those words actually coming from my mouth. I continued my sentence. “Doesn’t he have a son that goes to drayfus.”
Billy; Yeah.
Sammy; “They graduated today. Do you have any idea of why he didn’t go. I mean if he went.”
Billy; No he didn’t go. He’s a worthless piece of shit. If you ask me, John’s an asshole. Friday he told me that him and my mom have been together for the past seven years. When my father was alive. That asshole is probably the reason why he’s dead today. He fucking shadows me wherever I go. I guess I’m the son he never had.
Sammy; “No, he had a son, he has a son. I ‘m right fucking here” I said.
Billy; “What? You’re is son, all this time, it’s been you.”
Sammy; “Yes, he is an amazing man” I said. “Your father was, and never will be half the man my father is.” Then I thought to myself. This is who has my father. This ungrateful little shit. He is the reason why I have to delay college an extra year. He is the reason why dad never came to any of my games. He’s the reason why dad doesn’t love me any more. Then it occurred to me that I could end it all right now. Billy is the cause of all of my problems. He has all of dad’s attention. That I could fix it all. I could fix it all, before I had a chance to say anything this man dressed in black with a hood came rushing through the door
Sammy and Kelsey; I rememberKelsey; when the cops came to the door I was startled
Kelsey and 1; at first. 1; when his sister came to the door I thought she was there to tell me why he didn’t show. When I looked at her face I could tell it was something more.
Sammy and 1;I knew Sammy; he was here to rob the place. It was just a matter of
Sammy and Kelsey; whenKelsey; the officers told me you’d been shot in a gas station I didn’t believe it. It couldn’t be true. We’re twins I would of known. You still felt
Kelsey and 1; alive.
1; JUST TELL me IF HE’S STILL ALIVE. I NEED TO know if he’s still
1 and Kelsey; breathing.
Kelsey; I felt like I’d STOP
Kelsey and Sammy; BREATHINGSammy; very heavily, he pointed a gun at me and said give me the cash and no one will get
Sammy and1; hurt
1; is he, is he hurt, give me something ,Justine don’t just stand
Sammy and 1;there.
Sammy; was my opportunity
Kelsey; I’m sorry that your dead.
Sammy; I’m sorry that I shot her.
Kelsey; I knew him from school.
Sammy; I knew her sister Kelsey from school.
Kelsey; I always that he was a nice kid. He
Kelsey and 1; Is not the type.
1; of story you want to hear in the morning. That your boyfriend was robbed
1 and Sammy; and could have made it out alive
Sammy; but I couldn’t let that happen. This was my chance to get my father back. I took out the gun and aimed it right for him. He backed up. Katie stood right in front of him and said
Katie; Listen Sammy you don’t want to do this. It’s all over. The robber surrendered. We’ll call the cops and he will go to jail. And you will be a hero. Just put the gun down. Sammy; “Move Katie. I’ve got to do this”
Katie; No.
Sammy; “Only because I know your sister, am I going count up to three and give you the chance to move. 1”
Katie; no Sammy don’t do this
Sammy; “2.”
Katie; No Sammy please. Kelsey; In one shot she was gone. Why couldn’t you just leave him alone. Why couldn’t you have come home like you said and watched movies with me and just hang out like you promised. I needed you, Why did you have to
Kelsey and 1;leave me.
1; alone, your lying he’s still alive. He couldn’t be
Sammy and 1; dead.
Sammy; She was dead I didn’t do that. I did do that, the gun was in my hands. I’ve got to finish it, I’ve got to shoot him. So I did.
1; If you wouldn’t have cheated.
Kelsey; If you would have listened.
Sammy; If you have loved me.
1; You wouldn’t have been in a coma.
Kelsey; You wouldn’t have died
Sammy; I wouldn’t have shot them.
Kelsey; I go to your grave everyday.
1; I visit you in the hospital everyday.
Sammy; I sit in this cell everyday. For what?
Kelsey; It wasn’t worth it.
Sammy; It wasn’t worth it.
1; The doctors tell me that the chances of you making it is a million to one. But I know One day you’ll recover.
Kelsey; You’ll never recover.
Sammy; I’ll never recover.
1; No you won’t and I know you won’t and
Kelsey; I’m still waiting.
Sammy; I’m still waiting.
1; I’m sorry I loved you.
Sammy; I’m sorry I loved you.
Kelsey; I’m sorry I loved you.
1; But
Kelsey; I wish you were here
Sammy; I wish you were here
1; I wish you were here.
